These two crack me up. They keep me so busy, but they are so funny! They had a blast playing in Hallee's crib the other day.
It seems like this last month has been a rough one for me. I have been struggling with depression, which will probably always be a bit of a struggle for me, but it has been really bad lately. When I feel depressed I feel overwhelmed by everything! When I feel this way I have to be careful not to overwhelm myself.
Playing with the kids always lifts my spirits.
I think another part of the problem is everything seems to be going wrong right now. We are spending a fortune on co-pays and medicine. Caitlyn still has mollescum and we have spent a small fortune and the last few months trying to get rid of it. I'm getting very discouraged. We are trying a new, very expensive, medicine so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Wyatt has had some planters warts and an ear infection that added up to another three co pays and some medicine. Our car and van have needed work over the last few months. Our car was in for the 4th time on Friday for the same problem. We have tried different mechanics and we always seem to have the problems that no one can diagnose and we have to take the car in over and over to get it fixed. It is so frustrating.
Hallee's new favorite thing is our horse!
I'm still struggling with Jen being gone. It is a tough thing because my emotions are all over the place. Sometimes I miss her, sometimes I am mad and sometimes I'm just overwhelmed by the whole situation. It is really hard because it has affected all of our lives so much. It is tough to have my parents be parents again instead of full time grandparents. It is tough to watch them struggle and be overwhelmed by this unfair curve ball they have been thrown. Whenever I feel sorry for myself I quickly push those feelings aside because I know that my parents and Dante and Alexys are the ones that are struggling the most.
Wyatt was so excited when we pulled Jonah's old bike out for him. He is still struggling with the pedaling a little though.
This blog is therapy for me. I love to post pictures of my kids and the fun things we do and all of the positive things going on in our lives, but I also want to remember the hard things so I can remember that things always get better. I want to be able to tell my kids that we struggled with things too, but we made it and they will too.
Hallee had a blast playing in the Legos while we were getting them ready for Jonah's birthday party.
Caitlyn is the sweetest big sister. She took Hallee and Wyatt to play during Jonah's football game.
Seeing sweet things like this recharge me so I am able to face the frustrating things in life. Life will always have hard, frustrating things, but it will always have good things too. Some days it is easier to focus on the good things and I am a believer that sometimes we need to take a minute to feel sorry for ourselves and then we can go back to trying to be positive.
The other night Jonah was pushing Wyatt on his wiggle car by riding behind him. They were both laughing and having a great time. I loved watching them.
I could just eat Wyatt right up. He is so cute! He wanted a "hawk" today. I couldn't believe how old he looked when I turned around and saw him singing along to the radio in the car.
He got himself dressed today and picked Jonah's shorts that ended up being just the right size pants for him!
On Friday, Paul organized a little surprise party for Tiff. We were all waiting at Red Robin to surprise her. We almost didn't go because the car was in the shop again and I was stressed out. It ended up working out and I'm so glad we went. Keith and I don't go out much, but every time we do I know we need to do it more often. It was so nice to have a little break together.
After dinner we went to Katie's for treats and visiting. Keith ended up going home, but I stayed and visited with the girls and it was great. I am so grateful for good friends! Life may be hard, but it is good! I wouldn't trade my life for anything.
2 comments:
I love your honesty in this post. You do handle things well with the depression you suffer with. It's no fun. I understand your feelings about Jen. It's hard to verbalize and understand those feelings but you did it well. Thanks for your understanding!
Great post, even though it was probably not what you want to talk about. I am so sorry for everything and also that you have to deal with the depression. That is no fun. I love you so much and miss our talks, they always helped me! I don't think I would have made it through the first 3 years of twins without you as my neighbor.
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