Just keep Swimming!

Here is a random picture of Caitlyn and Jonah with Cody and Elena.  These guys always have a blast together.  We love every chance we get to see them. 

I sure love these kids!  They are each so different and unique. 

I know I am bias, but I sure think they are cute.  Some days I feel so inadequate to be their mom.  I just read my friends blog where she talked about the same feelings and it made me feel so much better.  I think she is the perfect mom so I was surprised to hear that she had the same feelings.  The thing I struggle with the most is my short temper and my lack of patience.  I feel like I am slowly making progress, but I worry that I don't have enough time and I need to progress faster before I really mess my kids up!

Love this cute girl!  We have had a rough week. I have been extra emotional and the kids have been extra difficult.  We had a really bad night and then it has been slowly getting better. 

I hope my kids always know how much I love them and remember the happy times instead of the times where mom was losing it!  That is why I keep this blog I want to remember the happy times.  I want to remember the day to day things, but I want to focus on the positive.  I don't need or want to remember all of my short comings, but they are apart of life.

If I could describe this point in our life in one word it would be, loud.  Our house is always so noisy.  Everyone tries to talk at once and someone is usually screaming because someone else is bugging them.  I think Hallee has figured out that she has to be really loud to be heard so she has started this ear piercing scream that can be heard over all the noise.  Yesterday at the store a few women stopped and turned when they heard her happy, little scream and thought it was pretty funny.  I wanted to say and this is only one of my four!

Mixed in with all of the yelling and screaming is a lot of laughing.  My kids are so funny!  They all constantly make us laugh.  Sometimes Keith and I are getting after the kids and they will make us laugh.  Wyatt is always good for a laugh, even when he is bossing me around! Life with four kids is crazy, loud and always interesting, but I love it.  I love my kids more than I ever thought I could and I hope and pray that I can be the kind of mom that they need and that I want to be. Sometimes it is nice to hear that other mothers struggle because when I look around I am sure that everyone has it figured out except for me.  Life isn't always easy, but it is good!